We're all kinda messed up in our own unique way. No matter who you are, the truth is your weird. Embrace that shit! That's what makes you who you are. Add to that the fact that you're gonna f**k things up. A lot. That's life. You're gonna make mistakes, you're gonna have regrets. We have one shot at this crazy little thing called life and we decide to waste so much of our time thinking about our mistakes.
What if I told you that there is no meaning to your existence? That you are born, you live, you die. That's it. Every single second is unique. Every moment. Whatever you do, nobody else has ever done EXACTLY what you are doing right now. That is where the awesome part is.
I'm going to right another blog about Tim Minchin's UWA address. It's one of the best things ever. However I'm going to pull on the one key takeaway. Life is meaningless but that doesn't make it any less awesome. The universe has been around for far longer than humanity, yet we come here thinking that there must be a greater reason for everything. That it all happens due to this big plan. And we rack our tiny little brains trying to figure out exactly what that mother licking bigger picture is. Guess what. There isn't one.
Whatever you are doing, savor it. Unless you're wallowing away. In which case punch yourself in your genitalia and get the hell on with enjoying this wonderful, beautiful, inspiring, unique and meaningless existence. Nobody else is going to do that for you.
You see, since moving here I guess I've realised how self-centered I am. I see people at home moving on with their lives and it's like WHAT THE FLIP MAN! Like yeah. I want them to be happy and stuff, but I kind of wish that they weren't as happy as they were when I was there. How selfish is that? It's a really eye opener to think that the world still keeps moving whether you are there or not. That's the truth. That's why there is no greater meaning to it all. You're ex is gonna find someone else, and so they should. Your mates are going to be out drinking and having fun. It's a fact. Would you rather they all sat in a darken room waiting for your dateless return? (I guess a little bit haha). So how about we all just stop sitting there and feeling sorry for ourselves. Infect the world with your joy. Penetrate everybody you meet (not always sexually, particularly in places where there is no free healthcare). Leave a mark in their lives in a good way. They will always remember you, and hopefully they will tell other people about you. I've told countless stories about friends back home and I've only been here a week. Should I message them and say "hey, I was talking about that time that we did x at y?". No. I don't have the time or energy to do that. Not when I am trying to focus on enjoying this moment right now. But they should sure as hell know that I am talking about them, just as much as I sure as hell hope they they are about me.
Get on with things. Stop being bitter. Life doesn't owe you anything. But you owe yourself a hell of a lot. Nobody is going to hand you down some happiness. It's on you to go and make that happen by just opening your eyes and realising that we live in an incredible time. Like right now I could communicate with practically anybody I care about across 5 different mediums. I can speak to them in real time or even frigging look at them no matter how far away they are. If I'm not fussed by the two way immediacy, I can email them, text, whatsapp, poke, even send a traditional letter! It's pretty frigging amazing. We are amazing. We've managed to take this meaningless existence and make damn sure that we are getting the most out of it. So utilise it and get out there and live. That's what it's all about. Laughing, smiling, experiencing and creating. And most of all teaching. Not necessarily in a literal job, but in life. Every time you meet somebody, no matter how well you know them, you are teaching them something.
Let's just stop looking for a greater meaning, and start enjoying this all.
